There was once upon a time that I was thought of as a perfectionist. I was also thought of as someone that pushed boundaries to make sure things happened the way they needed to. I was the guy that could just make things happen. I feel I have lost all of that.
I have been doing a lot of thinking about myself lately and it has, in all honesty, pissed me off. I mean, I am at the point that I truly don’t like who I have become. I am far to complacent, lazy, boring, and ill tempered. Now we just have to see if I can fix it. I am only 35, so anything is possible.
With that being said I think I have a few things I can do in the short term while I figure out the long term plan.
I have to start putting focus back on what is important. That would be my family, friends, and work.
I am already started the process of educating myself. I have started taking some open courseware and I am going to see that through.
Produce more is going to be one of the keys. I need to be constantly giving good outputs.
Stop taking every damn thing so personal.
Realize that I cant control everything. Even if I think it is wrong does not mean it want work.
Stop worrying about things I cant control.
Spend more time with my family doing family stuff.
Save more money.
At this point I am not sure I have any other options. Anyone got suggestions?
