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Over the past few weeks I have been thinking about my self and trying to figure out what I did well and what needed to change. I came to realize that I really have two different people inside me. One is Rickey and the other is Ken.

Now, Rickey is my middle name, the name my father goes by and the name I went by most of my life. This is a very important part of my personality and also the most volatile. He gives me my strength, self confidence and will power. These are all qualities that serve me well.

He does have some downsides. He is aggressive, has a bad temper and can easily not easy to rationalize with once he loses his temper. You might ask “How can both be good and bad?” Well that is a question I have not yet answered. I know I have to work hard to keep the bad pieces out and the good parts going.

The other guy that lives in my head is Ken. Ken is an abbreviation of my first name, the name I currently use and what my Mom’s side of the family call me. Ken is laid back, smart, funny, caring, business savvy and always easy to talk to.

Ken does have his down sides as well. Ken is to nice, he is easy to walk over, he is very sensitive and prone to being to complacent. Not all of these are very bad, but can be if not put in check. This is where Rickey comes in.

When I can combine Rickey and Ken I get the best of both worlds. I get someone that is very good in the business world, self confident, does not get run over, is ambitious and still easy to communicate with. So my goals are to get these two guys to work together 100% of the time. Wish me luck.