Many of the people I hang out with or that know me don't understand the reasons I
love hip-hop. To them it seems strange that a white computer nerd, hacker, golfer,
father and someone that never was in any real trouble would love such music. To them
this music is for people that have nothing or that want to emulate these stars. It
is for people that do drugs, rob, and want to do crime, they thank. Most of these
people just see a cultural representative that they don't agree with and they don't
like what it represents to the world as a whole. I really can understand this
perspective. What I ask is that you follow me through my journey and why I love this
poetry and art forum.
Early Life
Early in my life I was very socially awkward and this lead to me being bullied and
picked on. I spent a lot of time alone and sad. It got so bad that I decided that I
would not even try to have friends. Thinking back, I think I might be a little
autistic, but no one really thought about that back then.
I needed an escape and that came in the forum of music, just not at first. My parents
were really big country music and classic rock fans. This was not me. Nothing in the
songs related to me. I could not get a feel for the love songs or the songs about
being cool. Then one day I heard some hip hop. While I did not relate to some of the
lyrics, I could relate to the ton.
The songs talked about struggle, being down and fighting to come back up. This struck
a cord with me. I could see some of myself in the songs. They made me feel like I was
not alone. They gave me confidence that I would be OK. It was amazing! While these
artists were different from me culturally, they were fighting the same as I was. They
were outcasts just like me.
The teen years
I had discovered a music that spoke to my soul. The confidence this music gave me
helped me come out of my shell just a bit. I started talking more to girls because
the music said I could and they would talk to me as well. Then I started playing
sports. From that point life seemed to get better. Then the accident happened.
One the day after I turned 16 I was in a car accident. I know what your thinking
right now, but it was not my fault. Even a judge agreed. This injured my back and
took away football from me. I was never really good in school and this setback did
not help. I barely made good enough grades to pass and finally dropped out.
All the years work and effort were destroyed for me. I felt like I would not be able
to work things out. However, it was simple music that gave me the lift I needed to
keep going.
Now that I am older
Once I became and adult, several times I have experience times when I would have
quit and not pushed on. At those times a simple song would come on and it would
change my mind set and cause me to soldier on. The music not only inspired me to
keep on grinding, but also keep my head up and have confidence in myself. That
confidence has pulled me out of some really tough times.
Now that I am older, I completely understand why people don't like hip-hop and rap.
However, I think they are missing the point. The music is like poetry it can inspire greatness, it can be a pick me up when nothing else will work, and it can tell
stories like old country music did.
This is why I love the art form and am not ashamed of what it does for me. I do not
mind when my kids listen as these are not the ones that give them the moral compass.
So next time, before you condemn have a listen. Pay attention to the words and think
about why they are saying it.